My Path to Rediscovering My Passion

Step One: Get Quiet For most people, the road to connecting with passion begins with practicing good self care This means slowing down, spending time with yourself, taking good care of your body and mind, nurturing your spirit, and engaging in activities that will move you out of your head and into your body. Once you become passionate about your self-care, you'll know you're on the right track.

I'm joining Curves tomorrow morning.

Step Two: Become Sensitive to Your Environment Once you're more connected to your feelings, you'll be ready to do a little exploring to discover the specific, personal things that best ignite your passions. Spend one week paying close attention to

what excites you,
Catching people either very wisely or very stupidly using their negative emotions.

touches you,

• Children
• men
• women
• anyone who feels misunderstood and is suffering unnecessarily
  
  inspires you to think in a whole new way, - in date order:
• JFK
• MLK
• Gibran
• Michner
• Raoul Wallenberg
• Tony Robbins
• Jesus
• Oprah
• Phil McGraw.
  
  or even frustrates you,
  the idiots that get their fifteen minutes of fame while I have something of value to share and cannot be heard.
  
  . Watch for clues. Stories in newspapers,
  the Oklahoma Judge who pleasured himself at work - gee, if only I'd pleasured myself at work! I could have been heard.
  
  programs on television,
  Women who get on tv shows because they're having a bad hair day. They're having a bad hair day, and I've got something of real value to share..... can we spell f-f-f-f-r-u-s-t-r-a-t-i-n-g!
  
  or conversations with friends may give you an indication of those things that will lead you to your passions.
  They wish I didn't have this passion. They would prefer I was this new and improved Lollie, only without the need to share with others what caused that improvement.
  
  As you make new discoveries write about them in your journal.
  
  This is my journal and so far it's frustrating as hell. :)
  
  Step Three: Answer a Series of Questions
  
  Once you're more connected to your feelings, you'll be ready to do a little exploring to discover the specific, personal things that best ignite your passions. Spend one week paying close attention to what excites you, touches you, inspires you to think in a whole new way, or even frustrates you. Watch for clues. Stories in newspapers, programs on television, or conversations with friends may give you an indication of those things that will lead you to your passions. As you make new discoveries write about them in your journal.
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  What interest, passion or desire are you most afraid of admitting to yourself and others?
  I have no problem admitting my passion to anyone, but I am most afraid that the reason I've never gotten any TV show to consider letting me share my information is that - I'm too big a chicken. Maybe I sabatoge my own efforts. If that's true, I have to overcome it. The information I need to share is too important to let fear hold me back.
  
  
  What would you do if you knew you could not fail?
  I'd find a way to get Oprah to hear me. Or maybe she has and I just don't rate. What I would do if I knew I could not fail, is I would find out if Oprah has heard me.
  
  What do you love about yourself?
  With very little encouragement and a great deal of discouragement along the way, I am HORTON of Horton hears a Who. I am loyal to the people I'm striving to protect - 100% and I will never give up.
  
  What would you do if money was not a concern in your life?
  
• I would make sure there were songs, books, movies, games and cartoons that teach people by showing them how to wisely utilize their negative emotions. And I'd teach people the parts about men and women that John Gray left out.
• I'd have a new hit cd/dvd compilation put on the market - one cd/dvd of nothing but songs/ music videos that increase your love and faith in your God, another that only increases your love and faith in yourself, and a third one that only increases your faith in your fellow man and a fourth that is a mixture, a fifth that is the heartache relief cd, a sixth that is a chill out cd, and a seventh that is nothing but songs that cheer you up and put you in a good mood. - I'd have it put on the market so I could buy it and listen to it. Talk about music being healing! When you put the right songs in a row - it's MAGICAL HEALING.
• I'd get the world's absolutely best teething ring patented and on the market to cut down on babies suffering teething so much.

What one thing do you dream about doing that you've never told anyone?
That I've never told anyone? Nothing.

What do you fantasize about doing while driving your car or taking a shower?
Accepting my powerball check saying "To all those who ever said to me, 'Lollie, if you're so damn psychic - why aren't you rich?' ...... I rest my case. :)"

Who do you know that's doing something you'd like to do?
Ron Howard, Spike Lee,

Describe yourself doing it.
I don't have the foggiest notion of how I'd do it. But I have important information and Jesus said when you have that, you must take it to the top of the mountain. That's Oprah, hit movies, hit songs, hit games, hit cartoons.

How could you make the world a better place for yourself and others?
I share the most bizarre perspective and I'm not the first to share, but I may well be the first to say "Hey, pardon me, did you know this is the most important information in the world that almost no one knows and almost everyone needs to know? It holds the key to reducing murders, suicides, spousal abuse, child abuse and animal abuse. That's as important as any information in the world. And good news, it's easier than it sounds."

I guess that's why no one will listen. It sounds too easy. Just a healthier habit and you're using your anger wisely instead of stupidly? The same for depression, anxiety and remorse? You sure about this?

Yes. I am certain of it. I am living proof of it.


Who do you think you are?

I am a mad social scientist.

I am a protective mother. I have the heart and soul of a polar bear mother, but laws don't allow such behavior so I have restrained myself on occasions when my offspring were hurt.

I am a student of life, humanity, romance, all relationships, the higher good.

I am an information seeker, finder, provider and solutions provider.

I am whatever I feel the person I'm working with needs, by turns, funny, curious, serious, harsh, kind, challenging. I duck and dance and dodge to lead them away from the edge of suicide. I believe once a suicidal person says anything to me and leaves me a shot at responding - it's an automatically locking vise grip on their wrist and they'd have to chew their damned hand off to go over that edge. I grab em, and I sling em as far back away from that edge, like a sling shot is what I aim to be. And I am. I am good at preventing suicides. :)) An' I'll pat myself on the back till the day I day over that one - I have a talent, a skill and experience. No one can save everyone, but I do well.

I used to believe sincerely that my i.q. spiked much higher than most folks. Only a few years ago, I realized, that isn't true at all. It is only that it spikes further out to the sides. And that isn't just a play on words, that's the truth.

What did you love when you were a child?
Always a dog. Often a cat. My bicycle. My burro. Clover. Staring at the sun. If you stared at it long enough, it would become a white can with a blue lid, turning about in the sky.

What's stopping you from moving forward with exploring your passion?
I think it's fear. Fears I might offend. Fears I might already be rejected. God those are stupid fears. And I'm a master of using fear. I'll take care of this one now.

List five things that you want.
Hit movies, hit songs, hit games, hit cartoons, hit tv sitcoms - that all illustrate and teach how to wisely utilize the God-given and too long suffered negative emotions.

List five things that you're good at.

• loving animals
• thinking outside the box
• preventing suicides
• taking pictures
• saving relationships

What drives you, and what gives you satisfaction?

I'm driven to help people, I get satisfaction from helping people, from being right, from impressing myself and others. Actually, if I'm not impressing people, I don't feel loved. I think that's an important glitch I'm supposed to have. It's sure got me to giving my best.


When you were young, what did you know you would do when you grew up?

Help people suffer less unnecessarily. I fully understand pain is necessary. It's the duration I'm after.


How would you like the world to be?

Take out the worst parts of it, the evil spirits: alcohol, nicotine, meth, coke, etc. the really family and life destroying drugs, take out the torture of people, the molestation of children. I know we can't end these things, however anything that can get worse, can also be improved. I look for improving conditions. :)


What would you regret not having done if your life was ending?

I'd really like to answer my calling before I die.
However, if my calling is best served by me dying some tragic but hopefully painfree death - then that my choice.
And if all else fails and I've got nothing else, a headstone in a cemetary that says:

Lollie Dot Com

1953 - 20??

Share me and I'll live forever.

But don't think for a minute that death can stop me. I die, I'm goin' to heaven and when I get to heaven, I believe I get to do whatever I please within reason. And therefore all I'll do in heaven is answer prayers and the prayers I'll be most concerned with answering are the ones of my children asking me to finish my calling myself. :)

"This is BIG!" — OprahAfter answering these questions, read through the answers. Do you see any patterns?

Yes, I have a magnificen obsession that's been simmering on the backburner long enough. It's time to make sure Oprah knows about it and can accept it or reject it on it's merits.


Step Four: Go on a Treasure Hunt

Go on a 'treasure hunt' in your own home. The things you hold on to can provide clues to your interests and passions. See how one woman took a journey into her past and discovered a link between her history and her passions — pictures, letters, books, trophies from her childhood — all clues to her forgotten self.

I'm a photographer. I've got pictures. I'm a reader, my house has a some good books and magazines. I have nothing from the past. I have been a rolling stone, gathering no moss.

Step Five: Take A Risk
Stop "thinking" about your passions and start doing something. Take a risk, and step out to try something new. By challenging your fear with action, you'll not only raise your self-esteem, you'll expand your comfort zone. If you're not sure of what to do, ask a trusted friend or partner for ideas. Remember that good luck happens when you're in action. And, if you try something new (even if you're not sure of the outcome), you may discover a passionate interest by accident!

My mind is a jumble of ideas.
JD is hit just waiting to happen. I could make that video of him, then make an appointment with a Tulsa TV station to ask them to look at it, give us advice on making it better, make it better, run it by them, then see if they'll help us run it past Garth. :)
Then hit them with what I have because I'm going to have to impress them first, then show them what I have.

For the first time in nine years, a person I helped at my site offered to pay me. What an incredible person! I'll never forget Greg as long as I live. Anyways, I can't take money for my work at the site. It's nothing but gifts God gave me and I'm using them to create a gift for God.

I could swear Jesus told us to be good to strangers, and that's what I do with my site. So Greg writes back. He wants to know, is there anything he can do to repay me. And just now I wrote back to him and told him this:

Oh, and there is something you can do for me. Write a letter to Oprah.

Greg I'm called to the deepest core of my dna to share with people the ways to wisely use negative emotional alarm clocks rather than just suffer them.

I'm compelled beyond anything you can imagine to share with people the simple things to do to help out a friend or family member who is depressed or maybe even suicidal.

I guess I'm not that good a letter writer, but I can't get the Oprah people to see how it's our negative emotions spiking into the stratosphere that causes murders, suicides, spousal abuse, child abuse, animal abuse - and therefore, teaching people how to change their habits of suffering negative emotions to new habits of wisely using their negative emotions reduces the number of emotional spikes in our world.. And dammit, it's not that hard to do. I'll bet you can testify to the fact that it's no harder than learning how to drive a standard shift auto.... feels real difficult for a while, but then you get it.

And if I could just get that out there, I wouldn't have to feel so guilty for the "unnecessary, pretty damned easily stoppable suicides" that keep happening every day until I spread this message. My heart is haunted by them and everyone that loved them.

So yes, Greg, you see who I am and what I do, please, write to Oprah for me.

From the bottom of my heart,

Lollie

More about the movie

There's not that much more to add at this point. I've pitched the movie idea here. I came up with it because I believe:

• It will be fun to watch our favorite celebrities acting as numerous versions of themselves.
• It will be fun for them to act as numerous versions of themselves.

Oprah, if you think this will be fun, lets do it.

If you're a friend or representative of Oprah and you think she might enjoy making this movie, please share it with her.

If you're not either of the above, oh what the heck, drop us a line. Let's talk about it.

I Want Oprah to Star in My Movie

The Pandemic hit in 2007 and it hit every bit as hard as a category six hurricane, only it hit the whole world pretty much all at once. The population of the United States had been almost 210 million strong in those days. Then the 'Big Bird Flu' claimed almost 65 million of the people closest to us in '07 and '08. The war that followed took another 40 million. Between the two they literally cut our numbers in half. Many of those that remained were too traumatized to let themselves love again. Isolation was rampant while promiscuity and the resulting std's had spiked through the roof.

We didn't have to lose so many. The World Health Organization, The Centers for Disease Control and Oprah warned people to get prepared before it hit. Even George W. Bush warned folks and in eight years of serving his country it is still to this day considered by most Historians, one of the few things he ever did right.

And it's not like people didn't listen. They watched the news more. They listened carefully and then they worried. But most of them didn't do a damn thing to get prepared. The day we found out the Pandemic was no longer only spreading like wildfire in humans, but was still taking the lives of half who caught Big Bird Flu..... virtually everyone went to Walmart. That day Walmart broke all previous records for sales, stampedes, fights, and even deaths in some of the stores.

But they were still too little, too late. They hadn't saved money to pay house payments, rent, utilities and more supplies without going to work. Mom and Dad went to work, next thing you know, homes were being marked with big red X's on nearly every street, showing that no one who lived there was still alive. Unlike the 1918 pandemic, the mortality rate wasn't 2.5% of those who caught the disease..... it was just slightly over 50%. Tamiflu was about as effective at stopping Big Bird's deadly march around our world as a trailer park speed bump.

Due to the leadership of President Mary Cheney [2012-2020], who lay the ground work for President Chelsea Clinton's brilliant coup -- the insurrection of 2009 was squelched neatly and completely in 2022.

Our technology has in many ways regained the strides it had made in the beginning of the century. Television, highways, the 'infrastructure,' even computers and cell phones are back in use. Just like the old days, every time you buy a new one, it's practically obsolete before the battery needs to be recharged.

Some spikes in technology have occurred as a result of the horrific and numbing losses of life during the pandemic and then later in the 'unofficial' civil war. A high school student in Bugtussle, Oklahoma wrote an important program that revolutionized the robot industry. The new robots looked and sounded just like us.... Only better. A lot better. Your own celeb-robot, or 'crib' as they became known, will never die... If it doesn't suit you because it's too hard to get along with, or too easy, simply reprogram it. So you see, in no time, Celeb-Robotics.com [CRB INC.] was the fastest growing new company in the world. The first year there were only five CRBs:

• model #crb01fxx -- the Hot Foxx (jamie)
• model #crb02mcc -- The Big McC (Matthew)
• model#crb03bry -- The Sweet Berry (Halle)
• model#crbo4joe -- the All Out Alba (Jessica)
• and model#crbo5Op -- the Oprah

They were flying off the shelves in every Trump-Mart like they were ice cold beer at a hot and humid NASCAR race. Over ten million sold the first month. The guys left over from Dreamworks and some really good plastic surgeons literally lived in the design labs and I have to say, the work they did was truly incredible.

Physically, these robots looked and sounded exactly like the celebrities we had loved so dearly before we lost them and half of the ordinary, just like us people we loved. Our present is a future most science fiction writers never imagined. We have never and probably will never wear matching polyester uniforms in a nearly monochromatic world. Even in the first year, when there were only five models, we dressed them up and changed their hair styles and colors like they were the greatest Barbie and Ken dolls ever made. Because in fact they were.

It took a while to work all the bugs out....

Version 3.1 of the Foxx would try to dirty dance with half the people that rang your doorbell even if he was running one of the G or PG rated versions.

Version 4.1 of the Big McC would smoke pot and play the bongo drums naked at the most embarrassing times and places whether you programmed him full bore bohemian or not.

The real brains of the place were still wet behind the ears computer geeks and both 'the Berry' and 'the Alba' would begin to strip anytime they were near a traffic light that was red. I have to admit, It waaas funny, especially in the cities. There's all these ordinary owners trying to stop them and they never did get em all stopped in time. There was always two or three that would be flashing everything to everybody. tch... tch... Boys will be -- idiots! It sure made guys that couldn't afford their own Celeb-Robot feel better though.

The following year there were a couple of new models hit the shelves every month.... Tom Hanks, Will and Jada Pinkett Smith, Faith Hill, Tim McGraw, Jake Gyllenhaal, Jennifer Aniston, Portia De Rossi, Natalie Portman, Drew Barrymore, the Oceans 11 or was it 12 guys, the desperate housewives, Jenny McCarthy, Vince Vaughn, and Owen Wilson. The Penelope Cruz was a very BIG seller. Before it was all said and done, there was quite an assortment to choose from. About the only downside is it still takes almost 6 hours to fully program a new crib. You'd think they'd find a way to speed up that process.

They were ALL popular and even though the Oprah was only programmed in G and PG versions and thanks to the 'CelebrityHeroAngel Bill' that was rushed through the house and senate, she could never be used as a mate.... But still, everyone had to have their own Oprah. I mean come on, it's OPRAH..... She was even provided by the government free to any family that fell below Fema income guidelines.

Do you like her compassion best? Then you program that in as her top value.... you can't get a blister without her warm soothing concern and gracious care. Prefer the 'my favorite things' Oprah? Her top values are interior design, Nate, Vera Wang gowns, Jimmy Choo Shoes and the finest foods you ever laid a lip on. :)

Oprah now lives in almost every home. She comes with a choice of four of her most attractive hair styles. Dr. Phil later became a big seller too, but still, like all the other cribs, he was no where near Oprah. All of us who still remembered her asked her why she stayed with Stedman so long without marrying him. But every Oprah, being just a little different from every other Oprah down the street; gave different answers. All it did was cause heated debates over our century greatest mortal angel.

Although about 20 celebrities have smaller parts, Oprah, Matthew, Jamie, Halle and Jessica are all over the movie.... and before long they're almost backdrops for the plain looking people that own them who are inexplicably surprising themselves by falling in love with each other instead of their perfect cribs......

To be continued tomorrow.....